Monday, December 8, 2008

Still Here

Thanks for all of your nice recent comments. For those of you checking in -- wondering if I have a baby, I don't.

It is silly because everything you read says that up to two weeks before or AFTER your due date is "normal," but it doesn't feel normal. And honestly, I have NEVER heard of anyone going two weeks past their due date. Probably people used to, but it seems like if anyone is even one day past their due date these days they are immediately induced. I have nothing against being induced. Probably half of my many nieces and nephews came happily into this world after an induction. I always am so excited when one of my loved ones are getting started and I know a new little one will be here shortly, but, for some reason, I have never wanted to be induced myself. I don't know why exactly. I have no concerns about it or how it would go and if there was any reason to worry my baby was too big, or there was low fluid, or anything, I would IMMEDIATELY opt for an induction. I think it is just that I never have been and truly, as much as I go insane waiting, that whole ending of wondering when and then suddenly thinking, "Oh my goodness, I think I'm in labor!" is so fun to me and so part of the package deal of my pregnancies that I feel cheated to miss it. It is really pretty much the highlight of the entire pregnancy for me. Plus, Mike is also all about letting nature take its course as long as baby seems fine. He is much more calm about things and doesn't see why the exact date is such a big deal or why we have to force baby out if it doesn't come on that day. So, he helps me feel calm . . . but he is all that does.

Everything else makes me feel very very frustrated! And unfortunately, the due date IS a big deal to me. You spend nine months counting to that day -- and assuming you will have a baby BY that day. There is something about going past that day, especially several days passed, that makes you truly begin to feel like you will never go into labor. It is just so disappointing. Obviously, the day baby comes, I will think nothing of how many days extra I was pregnant, but right now, it is all I think about. I wake up at 5:00 or 6:00 am every morning and can't go back to sleep because I feel so frustrated and disappointed. I don't feel like seeing people because they all wonder what on earth I am still doing here. It is even more frustrating because I feel like everyone just thinks I'm stupid for still being pregnant (especially frustrated pregnant) when I could so easily not be (mind you, I know everyone doesn't really think that, I just feel that way because well, it is partly true, and every person who hears I'm past due does sadly comment, "Oh, won't your doctor start you?").

I think I am most let down because I feel like I will have to be induced, but because I don't want to, I will have had the added frustration of hoping and waiting for another week which will have been pointless if I am to be induced anyway. Oh, I know logically this is all so ridiculous of me, but honestly I feel like crying every day! I was able to be patient over the weekend because there were fun things to do, but today -- sending Mike off to work, back to doing school with the kids (I've scheduled them a week off whenever baby arrives) is so anti climatic to assuming we'd have a baby by now. I'm sorry I keep not answering anyone's phone calls -- even my most loving well intentioned siblings. I just feel like I will burst into tears or totally unreasonable frustration to have to continue saying, "No, nothing is happening," to anyone. Why am I such a wreck!!?

11 comments:

Karen said...

Oh Nancy....I'm sorry your little one has decided that the enviroment you have created is where he/she would like to stay. Both my sister and my sister-in-law always go past their due dates. It makes them crazy too. I can't remember which one anymore goes two weeks over and then ends up being induced.

On the bright side....I'm pretty sure this sweet baby will decide it's time before Christmas and definately before Kindergarten. {{Hugs}}

Madsenfam said...

I did have to check, I have to admit! I love this surprise thing and I totally agree about the anticipation. It's fun for me to be living it through you, a little bit, again!! Love your pregnancy pics at the end, you look GREAT, by the way!! Talk to you soon!!

Rhonda said...

I am so sorry Nancy! It is so hard to wait and wait and wait! With Ruby it seemed like the days leading up to and after my due date were the longest (and most emotional)days of my life!!! We are thinking about you and love you and hope that things happen soon!

Sarah said...

I have to say that you are NOT unreasonable for feeling this way. Who wouldn't! Of my three babies my second was the only one that came by being induced and it was my longest labor and delivery as well (not bad or anything, just longer). I think it is great you are waiting for your little one to decide when to debut. When the surprise happens it will be that much more exciting!! Hang in there.

On a silly note, I pulled out a little wooden nativity that I was given and the donkey looked oddly familiar, large and out of place. Remind you of an other carved nativities (sp)?

Kelly said...

Nancy, of course Mike is all calm he is not carrying a baby for 42 weeks! If I went that long I would have literally exploded. I was measuring to term with Will about 3months before he was actually due. Yikes I was a tank. Hang in there think of the relief you will feel when he comes out at 50 weeks! Oops did I say he?

Mugsy said...

O its just like we disussed. You have waited this whole time and are definately eager and tired of waiting but you have waited this whole time to have it just the way you want, so do!
We just need to get you doing some other stuff to help your mind be some where else for the next little while. I love you so much, hang in there!

Gracie J said...

I feel compelled to leave a comment for my sad friend who's mean baby has decided to have the gestation of a baby elephant. What a stubborn, stubborn baby dhost you have! I remember when I was eight months pregnant wondering if it was ever going to be over (really uncomfortable), so hopefully the appearance will be made soon and then the joy can begin. XOXO to you and your crazy Decembers!

jami said...

oh nancy-you get to be as much as a wreck as you want to be ... and baby boops will be there soon enough! sending happy "i hope labor is just around the corner" thoughts your way!
xoxoxo

Perla said...

if nothing else, this delay has allowed jessica to finally come out of her hiding and post a comment. it's all worth it. :)

Tia Juana said...

Just yesterday I was emailing Troy boy and telling that if you weren't still pregNancy on Friday we would be having lunch and he said that "Nancy won't go that long!" So there you have it - in our family, he is the Alpha-Male and when he says something, it is so. Even as I type this I wonder if you will even get it because you might just be up at the hospital having your dhost.

Marnie said...

I'm glad this has a happy ending. Congratulations on your new baby!

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