Very often, when this little Mette Mary is crawling rather wildly after me, or beaming at me – nearly beyond containment -- with her crinkle-nosed smile, or suddenly becoming horribly discontent with anyone else if she sees that I am nearby, or happy only if she’s in my arms, I feel . . . flattered. Honored. A little like . . . surely she must be confused!
I can’t quite believe it’s possible that this miraculous, spectacular little soul could actually prefer me above all else! It seems not quite real that all bundled in this unearthly wonder of a child there could exist such a strong and overriding desire simply to be with me; normal, ordinary, mortally-flawed me.
But . . . she does. She does prefer me above all else. By some miracle, this little girl appears to really truly love and adore me. It’s impossibly wondrous having a perfect and magical little angel who is blind to your shortcomings and just . . . unquestioningly hitches her wagon to yours with utter confidence and willingness and desire.
Dear little wished-for child. “Wished-for child”. That’s what her middle name means. It almost made me chuckle when I first discovered it because I hadn’t known I was wishing for her. In fact I very much thought my family was complete. But surely; surely, even without my knowing it, my soul has always always been wishing for her – for eternities – wishing for her.
8 comments:
It's great to be loved and also a love that has no expectations of you :)
Oh yes, you are lucky. I think Sam in some ways wishes he didn't have quite so much adoration and neediness from our Teddy, but he is lucky too. It's wonderful and amazing to feel so wholly loved. And what a little darling she is, that happy Mette!
As always, a beautiful, touching blog! Mette is such a sweetheart.
A mother's words are sometimes such a beautiful music! I share the awe in front of such adoration and undivided trust and attention, I remember feeling the same when my kids were smaller and that all they wanted/needed seemed to be me! But in your words now, I read such devoted love too. I see how beautiful a mother's love is. A kid who wants only you is such a miracle, but a mom who is always there, who is always present and ready to give all she has is a miracle too. Mette is an angel, but she isn't the only one! :)
Yes! It is Trisha! :)
Haha! Yes, I know THAT feeling too! The one where I wouldn't mind being slightly less liked by a baby. ;)
Thank you so much Gayle!
As always, your words are so kind and uplifting Val! You always spread such light!
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